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Saturday, January 30, 2010 7:44 PM
Momentary love.
I shouldn’t be hanging around, when the world’s turn upside down. You abandoned me. I fell off the tree, to the hard and lonely ground. You found somebody new, and cracked my shell in two. How could I foresee that you turned out to be such a buck toothed Casanova? Now there’s only strife and my life has lost all meaning. I wish you only knew that I’m only nuts for you. Alone again, naturally…
I feel what I've been feeling for you, means I am falling for you. Something's opened up inside of me and I dream in shades that only can be the colours of you and me. I think we both know what that means. No denying you're the habit that I can't quit. Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time, and we move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine. And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines, but I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside. I stand inside this promise I've made to myself but it was meant for you. My heart, I want to save it for you, don't want it broken into pieces because I need myself to be whole. Could we just sit and talk awhile? I just want to see your smile and feel your sunlight shining over me. I want to be, all that you want, and get myself together because you keep me from falling apart. All my life, I want to be with you forever to get you through the day and make everything okay. Because without you I can’t sleep and you're all I've got, you're all I want. And without you, I don't know what I'd do. I could never, ever live a day without you. Here with me, do you see, you're all I need. If I fall, if I break, if I lose myself in someone, if I give all I am, it has to be with you. When I'm ready to take all that you want me to give, it would be worth the wait, worth all the long nights dreaming of forever, and that someday we will be together. I don’t know it will ever happen so please wait for me if that day ever comes.
But just stop there and let me correct it - I want to live a life from a new perspective; I want to be praised from a new perspective. But leaving now would be a good idea, so catch me up on getting out of here. More to the point, I need to show, how much I can come and go. Other plans fell through, and put a heavy load on you. I know there's no more that need be said, when I'm inching through your life. Take a look around instead and watch me go. There's nothing I could say to you, and nothing I could ever do to make you see what you mean to me. All the pain, the tears I cried. Still you never said goodbye and now I know, how far you'd go.
I thought that I had everything. I didn't know what life could bring but now I see, honestly. You're the one thing I haven’t got right, the only one I let inside. Now I can’t breathe, because you're not here with me. I know I’d let you down, but it’s not like that now. I can’t turn it all around because I had to let you go. All alone in an empty room, nothing left but the memories of when I had you still. I don't know how we ended up here - I don't know but it's never been so clear. We made a mistake, dear. And I see the broken glass in front of me; I see your shadow hanging over me, and your face, I can’t see. Agony, regret or apologies - I won’t want to see those emotions ‘cause you’re not coming back, until I’m set free.
I was so in love with you and there was nothing I could do - you wouldn’t give me the time of day. Then you want to be with me, and there was nothing I could say, it was going good for me. Now, you’re telling me that I am where it’s at, but I ain’t having none of that, because I told you, you would look to regret it. Now I thought it would make it you feel bad, but when it comes to me just forget it. I'll be the best you never had. You put me through so many emotions, now it’s besides the fact, because in your empty heart I left a mark - the best you never had. No, it’s only as a friend, I don’t want revenge. But if you must know the truth, what you didn’t see in me, that’s what you'll never be. When you were telling me, I might be the one, I feel indifferent. That was good love, my stuff – that’s what you missed out on. My touch shows much we could have. You missed out my kiss, my lips, the love I had for you. Also so long, it didn’t make you sad.
The world’s rotating; I'm shaking, I hoped you'd turn around in time. The tides are changing; I was waiting, but you and I are one of a kind. No matter what you say about love, I kept coming back for more, thinking that if I kept my hand in the fire, sooner or later I’d get what I’m asking for. No matter what you say about life, I learn every time I bleed. The truth is a stranger and my soul is in danger, so I got to let my spirit be free, to admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind. I’m sick of playing all of these games, and it’s not about taking sides. When I looked in the mirror and it didn’t deliver, it hurt enough to think that I have to stop and I have to admit that I had been wrong and I have to change my mind. Sorry, but I have to move on and leave you behind.
We've run out of words; we've run out of time; we've run out of reasons really why we can be together. We both know it's over and it's best that we don't talk at all. I still wake up every day remembering your morning call. I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table and I can't even remember how long it's been. Don't talk to me even if I should cross your mind because it’s hard enough just trying to erase you from my mind. Let's just call it quits as it's probably better so if I'm not returning your messages, it's because I'm not coming back and I'm closing the door. I used to be tripping over missing you but I'm not anymore because it's over. Boy, you know it's over this time. I keep conversations short and sweet because the burning and the yearning inside my heart ain't there anymore. I know that we're through when you don't move me like the way you moved me before. And I want to pull you close but my heart has frozen, then you go out of my heart forever. It hurts me but I know that it's better for the both of us. I realize nothing’s broken so there is no need to worry about everything I’ve done and live every second like it was my last one. Don’t look back for we’ve got a new direction. I loved you once, needed protection. You’re still a part of everything I do, and you’re on my heart just like a tattoo. No matter what I do, I’ll always have you. If I live every moment, it won’t change any moment. There's still a part of me in you, and I will never regret you. Still the memory of you marks everything I do like a tattoo.
I shouldn't love you, but I want to; I just can't turn away. I shouldn't see you, but I can't move; I can't look away. And I don’t know how to be fine when I'm not because I don't know how to make the feelings stop. It's getting hard to be around you and there’s so much I can't say. Do you want me to hide the feelings and look the other way? Just so you know this feeling's taking control of me and I can't help it. Thought you should know, I've tried my best to let go of you but I don't want to. I just got to say it all before I go, just so you know. This emptiness is killing me and I'm wondering why I've waited so long. Looking back I realize it was always there, just never spoken. I'm waiting here. No - I’ve been waiting here, ever since the day you entered my life. And I would recall the day when we first met - you gave me a smile that I had never forget.
Staring out into the world across the street, I hate the way my life turned out to be. It's like pulling up in the driveway and trying not to make a sound because I always learn to hold the things I want to say. I’m always going to be afraid. Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces, I learned the hard way to shut my mouth and smile. If these walls could talk they would have so much to say because every time I fight, the scars are going to heal but there never going to go away. My falling, my screaming, me stuck in the same old nightmare. I’m lying, I’m crying, but there's nothing left to salvage. Just kick the door because this is over, and get me out of here. There's only hate, there's only tears, there's only pain, and there is no love here. So what should I do? There're only lies, there's only fears, there's only pain, and there is no love here. Tell me what will you do?
No matter how much I cry, I can’t seem to get any better. Everybody knows, that I’m such a fool, to ever let go of you. It is time to move on, even though how much I wanted to crawl back to you. The least that I can do is to tell you face to face. I was lying to myself, I can’t stop trembling then I think of you. I said that I was fine, but I don’t believe in myself anymore. I miss you, but there is nothing I could do. What do you do, at this very moment when I think of you? I still need you, I still care about you, when everything’s been said and done. I still can’t forget you… So many words for the broken hearted, and it’s hard to see in the crimson love. Show me the meaning of being lonely. Is this the feeling I have to walk with? Tell me why, I can’t be there where you are. There is something missing in my heart, yet I'm missing in your heart. How would you feel if you were in my shoes, feeling used with your heart bruised? We're to the point of no return and along the way the only thing we've learned is how to hurt each other. All the talks and all the ways; we almost made it but we never did. And it's finally come to this… We cannot hide what we've become. I am so sick and tired of being numb that I don't want to wait another minute - put me out of my misery. I can read your mind, you're not in it and we're not what we used to be. No, you wouldn't have to lie to me if you would only let me go. And I don't want to wait another minute to hear something that I already know. I really miss you, there's something I got to say, the things we did, the things we said kept coming back to me and make me smile again. You showed me how to face the truth and everything that's good in me I owe to you.
Though the distance that's between us now may seem to be too far, it will never separate us. Deep inside, I know you are never gone, never far because in my heart is where you are; always close- every day, every step along the way. Even though for now we've got to say goodbye, I know you would be forever in my life.
All the doors are closing, I'm trying to move ahead and deep inside I wish it's me instead. My dreams are empty from the day- the day you slipped away. I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go. Some days I make it through but then there're nights that never end. I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me. But still I have to say I would do it all again. It is way too simple to say that I am in pain – it is not a muscle ache, not a headache. It is a heart ache. I would rather you keep quiet and never cared for me a single bit. I am better off without you giving heartbreaks more than you know.
Without you, within me I can find no rest and where I'm going is anybody's guess. Voices tell me I should carry on but I am swimming in an ocean all alone. It's written on your face but you still wonder if we made a big mistake. I've tried to go on like I never knew you. I'm awake but my world is half asleep. I've pray for my heart to be unbroken but without you what I'm going to be is, incomplete. I just need you to say if you would still be there when I turn around so that I would have the courage to keep walking forward.
Will you be there again? Is there truth in the stories you said? Wait for the time to make plans to grow old together, shall we?
I shouldn’t be hanging around, when the world’s turn upside down. You abandoned me. I fell off the tree, to the hard and lonely ground. You found somebody new, and cracked my shell in two. How could I foresee that you turned out to be such a buck toothed Casanova? Now there’s only strife and my life has lost all meaning. I wish you only knew that I’m only nuts for you. Alone again, naturally…
I feel what I've been feeling for you, means I am falling for you. Something's opened up inside of me and I dream in shades that only can be the colours of you and me. I think we both know what that means. No denying you're the habit that I can't quit. Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time, and we move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine. And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines, but I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside. I stand inside this promise I've made to myself but it was meant for you. My heart, I want to save it for you, don't want it broken into pieces because I need myself to be whole. Could we just sit and talk awhile? I just want to see your smile and feel your sunlight shining over me. I want to be, all that you want, and get myself together because you keep me from falling apart. All my life, I want to be with you forever to get you through the day and make everything okay. Because without you I can’t sleep and you're all I've got, you're all I want. And without you, I don't know what I'd do. I could never, ever live a day without you. Here with me, do you see, you're all I need. If I fall, if I break, if I lose myself in someone, if I give all I am, it has to be with you. When I'm ready to take all that you want me to give, it would be worth the wait, worth all the long nights dreaming of forever, and that someday we will be together. I don’t know it will ever happen so please wait for me if that day ever comes.
But just stop there and let me correct it - I want to live a life from a new perspective; I want to be praised from a new perspective. But leaving now would be a good idea, so catch me up on getting out of here. More to the point, I need to show, how much I can come and go. Other plans fell through, and put a heavy load on you. I know there's no more that need be said, when I'm inching through your life. Take a look around instead and watch me go. There's nothing I could say to you, and nothing I could ever do to make you see what you mean to me. All the pain, the tears I cried. Still you never said goodbye and now I know, how far you'd go.
I thought that I had everything. I didn't know what life could bring but now I see, honestly. You're the one thing I haven’t got right, the only one I let inside. Now I can’t breathe, because you're not here with me. I know I’d let you down, but it’s not like that now. I can’t turn it all around because I had to let you go. All alone in an empty room, nothing left but the memories of when I had you still. I don't know how we ended up here - I don't know but it's never been so clear. We made a mistake, dear. And I see the broken glass in front of me; I see your shadow hanging over me, and your face, I can’t see. Agony, regret or apologies - I won’t want to see those emotions ‘cause you’re not coming back, until I’m set free.
I was so in love with you and there was nothing I could do - you wouldn’t give me the time of day. Then you want to be with me, and there was nothing I could say, it was going good for me. Now, you’re telling me that I am where it’s at, but I ain’t having none of that, because I told you, you would look to regret it. Now I thought it would make it you feel bad, but when it comes to me just forget it. I'll be the best you never had. You put me through so many emotions, now it’s besides the fact, because in your empty heart I left a mark - the best you never had. No, it’s only as a friend, I don’t want revenge. But if you must know the truth, what you didn’t see in me, that’s what you'll never be. When you were telling me, I might be the one, I feel indifferent. That was good love, my stuff – that’s what you missed out on. My touch shows much we could have. You missed out my kiss, my lips, the love I had for you. Also so long, it didn’t make you sad.
The world’s rotating; I'm shaking, I hoped you'd turn around in time. The tides are changing; I was waiting, but you and I are one of a kind. No matter what you say about love, I kept coming back for more, thinking that if I kept my hand in the fire, sooner or later I’d get what I’m asking for. No matter what you say about life, I learn every time I bleed. The truth is a stranger and my soul is in danger, so I got to let my spirit be free, to admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind. I’m sick of playing all of these games, and it’s not about taking sides. When I looked in the mirror and it didn’t deliver, it hurt enough to think that I have to stop and I have to admit that I had been wrong and I have to change my mind. Sorry, but I have to move on and leave you behind.
We've run out of words; we've run out of time; we've run out of reasons really why we can be together. We both know it's over and it's best that we don't talk at all. I still wake up every day remembering your morning call. I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table and I can't even remember how long it's been. Don't talk to me even if I should cross your mind because it’s hard enough just trying to erase you from my mind. Let's just call it quits as it's probably better so if I'm not returning your messages, it's because I'm not coming back and I'm closing the door. I used to be tripping over missing you but I'm not anymore because it's over. Boy, you know it's over this time. I keep conversations short and sweet because the burning and the yearning inside my heart ain't there anymore. I know that we're through when you don't move me like the way you moved me before. And I want to pull you close but my heart has frozen, then you go out of my heart forever. It hurts me but I know that it's better for the both of us. I realize nothing’s broken so there is no need to worry about everything I’ve done and live every second like it was my last one. Don’t look back for we’ve got a new direction. I loved you once, needed protection. You’re still a part of everything I do, and you’re on my heart just like a tattoo. No matter what I do, I’ll always have you. If I live every moment, it won’t change any moment. There's still a part of me in you, and I will never regret you. Still the memory of you marks everything I do like a tattoo.
I shouldn't love you, but I want to; I just can't turn away. I shouldn't see you, but I can't move; I can't look away. And I don’t know how to be fine when I'm not because I don't know how to make the feelings stop. It's getting hard to be around you and there’s so much I can't say. Do you want me to hide the feelings and look the other way? Just so you know this feeling's taking control of me and I can't help it. Thought you should know, I've tried my best to let go of you but I don't want to. I just got to say it all before I go, just so you know. This emptiness is killing me and I'm wondering why I've waited so long. Looking back I realize it was always there, just never spoken. I'm waiting here. No - I’ve been waiting here, ever since the day you entered my life. And I would recall the day when we first met - you gave me a smile that I had never forget.
Staring out into the world across the street, I hate the way my life turned out to be. It's like pulling up in the driveway and trying not to make a sound because I always learn to hold the things I want to say. I’m always going to be afraid. Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces, I learned the hard way to shut my mouth and smile. If these walls could talk they would have so much to say because every time I fight, the scars are going to heal but there never going to go away. My falling, my screaming, me stuck in the same old nightmare. I’m lying, I’m crying, but there's nothing left to salvage. Just kick the door because this is over, and get me out of here. There's only hate, there's only tears, there's only pain, and there is no love here. So what should I do? There're only lies, there's only fears, there's only pain, and there is no love here. Tell me what will you do?
No matter how much I cry, I can’t seem to get any better. Everybody knows, that I’m such a fool, to ever let go of you. It is time to move on, even though how much I wanted to crawl back to you. The least that I can do is to tell you face to face. I was lying to myself, I can’t stop trembling then I think of you. I said that I was fine, but I don’t believe in myself anymore. I miss you, but there is nothing I could do. What do you do, at this very moment when I think of you? I still need you, I still care about you, when everything’s been said and done. I still can’t forget you… So many words for the broken hearted, and it’s hard to see in the crimson love. Show me the meaning of being lonely. Is this the feeling I have to walk with? Tell me why, I can’t be there where you are. There is something missing in my heart, yet I'm missing in your heart. How would you feel if you were in my shoes, feeling used with your heart bruised? We're to the point of no return and along the way the only thing we've learned is how to hurt each other. All the talks and all the ways; we almost made it but we never did. And it's finally come to this… We cannot hide what we've become. I am so sick and tired of being numb that I don't want to wait another minute - put me out of my misery. I can read your mind, you're not in it and we're not what we used to be. No, you wouldn't have to lie to me if you would only let me go. And I don't want to wait another minute to hear something that I already know. I really miss you, there's something I got to say, the things we did, the things we said kept coming back to me and make me smile again. You showed me how to face the truth and everything that's good in me I owe to you.
Though the distance that's between us now may seem to be too far, it will never separate us. Deep inside, I know you are never gone, never far because in my heart is where you are; always close- every day, every step along the way. Even though for now we've got to say goodbye, I know you would be forever in my life.
All the doors are closing, I'm trying to move ahead and deep inside I wish it's me instead. My dreams are empty from the day- the day you slipped away. I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go. Some days I make it through but then there're nights that never end. I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me. But still I have to say I would do it all again. It is way too simple to say that I am in pain – it is not a muscle ache, not a headache. It is a heart ache. I would rather you keep quiet and never cared for me a single bit. I am better off without you giving heartbreaks more than you know.
Without you, within me I can find no rest and where I'm going is anybody's guess. Voices tell me I should carry on but I am swimming in an ocean all alone. It's written on your face but you still wonder if we made a big mistake. I've tried to go on like I never knew you. I'm awake but my world is half asleep. I've pray for my heart to be unbroken but without you what I'm going to be is, incomplete. I just need you to say if you would still be there when I turn around so that I would have the courage to keep walking forward.
Will you be there again? Is there truth in the stories you said? Wait for the time to make plans to grow old together, shall we?